it will get better. I know it seems like everything is horrible, that people don't care, that you simply can't cope. But it will get better. I noticed a while ago that it seemed like the people closest to me didn't seem to notice or care that I was a wreck, but it seemed that way because I was really good at hiding emotions. It will get better, you are strong, you are an amazing person, and I wish only lie and happiness for all of you.