You don't deserve what your going through. I know its been a long time, but your a good mom, and a good wife. When he beats you and belittles you, it's not your fault. The problem lies with him. Your worth loving. Your not a piece of #####. Your kind, loving, and deserving. He has no right to make you feel any different. One day you'll be strong enough to leave him, and you'll never look back. You'll be happy and free!. YOU DONT DESERVE TO BE HIS PUNCHING BAG. THE PROBLEM HAS NEVER BEEN YOU. IT'S HIM BABY GIRL THE PROBLEM IS HIM!