You are a beautiful, wonderful person who, for reasons I can't even begin to understand, is overly critical of herself. I wish you wouldn't be. You are one of the kindest people I've ever met and I value you greatly. At your worst you are a better person than 90% of the people I know, and at your best I know only one other person who even compares. Please stop hating yourself. You deserve all the happiness. All of it.