I love you. It is hard to not be able to share things with anyone, and it's hard to feel like you're always alone. But as cliche as it sounds, things do get better. Think about how far you've come; you've had the will to survive for so long. Don't let anyone, including yourself, tell you that you can't do it. Because so far, you HAVE been doing it. I believe in you. I'm here to support you. You will survive. I know it.